Happy 7th Birthday to my 27 weeker & my lil Angel Lilly. I cannot believe they're 7 years old today :( Where has the time gone??!! Today 7yrs ago my life changed for ever. 2 journeys started. 1 to feel a loss of a beautiful lil girl who wasn't with us for very long, but she touched so many people & friendships grew because of her. she was a fighter & she showed us all how live our because she did in a few 45 mins she was alive. she was my wake up call. that day I grew as a woman & a mom. there was a hole put in my heart because she wasn't with us anymore, but that hole is closing slowly with Love & respect because I see the beauty in things now & each day the grief gets easier & my love grows strongers & I know it's her helping me grow. the 2nd journey was watching my 2lbs 5oz lil boy fight for his life. never knew that someone so lil could have so much fight in them. that day I lost a baby & had to keep coming back the place because my son layed there fighting for his life. 81 days in the nicu & he fought every single day.
My life changed so much in those days. my closest friends became my friends on the internet & nurses, doctors & hospital staff. everyday I sat in his room getting to know him not like a normal mother should learn to know her kid. but I did. I did the hard way. I was taught how to care of a sick lil boy. It was amazing to see. one day we had bad days, then we would have good days & then horrible days & then great days.
Life has never been the same since. but would I trade it....yes & I know. I know now my daughter isn't hurting, she's in a much better place & she's at peace. I grew that day. it was meant for a reason & I can finally accept that & move forward & love life like I should be.
Happy Birthday Carter & Lilly!
Mommy loves you so much! <3
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