a letter to my daughter..

Dear Lilly,

In 17days you will be 7yrs old which means it's been almost 7yrs that I said Hello & good bye to you. There's not a day that goes by that I don't miss you. I didn't get to see you while you were alive, but I did cherish every Tuesday when I was caring you that I got to see your strong heart beat & you beating the odds when all the doctors had given up hope. you showed us all what kind of a fighter you were.  To this day I stand by what I said about you from day one. You are one of my heroes. you showed us all what it was like not to give up hope & to keep pushing on. You saved your brother's life. If you would have passed before it was time, we would have lost him. You my sweet girl is what Heroes are made of!  Those that were chosen to meet you I know will never forget you. your tiny foot prints left a huge imprints in everyone's heart. 

Thank you for bringing the people I call my family into my life. without them I don't know where I would be. I have such an amazing group of friends/sisters in my life now because of you.

Thank you for the signs to let me know you're around. those are precious to me & i cherish them. but you know you could send me a lil more then you do sweetie!

I love the fact that your brother & sister talk about you as if they met you & know who you are, but I think they do. I think you come and visit them & that's your way of letting me know you're alright & with us always.

I love you sweetie always & forever. This year seems to be a lil easier, but who am I kidding every birthday without you here isn't easy. but i know you'll find a way to be here with us. and like always we promise you balloons!

Ok baby girl..I must go, but I just want you to know. I love you & miss you dearly!

Love always,

Mommy <3